Monday, December 28, 2009

17 Weeks!

How far along? 17 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Not sure. I've been eating kix and chocolate and the other day I read the boxes and realized they're NOT gluten free! Ugh. No wonder I've been sleeping so awful and so hungry.

How Big is Baby?: An onion.

Maternity clothes? My jeans are DEFINITELY getting tight.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Not so much.

Best moment this week: Getting our first cloth diapers in the mail!

Movement: Still waiting...

Food cravings: Not many. Mostly aversion still.

Gender: 23 more weeks!

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Spending most of the week with J because he is off of work.

Weekly Wisdom: Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

Milestones: Baby's skeleton is hardening, changing from rubbery cartilage to bone, and fat is finally accumulating around it. The umbilical cord is getting thicker and stronger, and those little fingers and toes are now topped by one-of-a-kind prints

Monday, December 21, 2009

16 weeks!

Went to the doctor today for my 16 week checkup. It was a disaster! I had to wait for 45 minutes beyond my appointment time to even be seen. The nurse found Cookie's heartbeat quickly - 151 bpm which is great, and then the doctor came in, asked a few questions and that was it. I discussed cord blood donation with her and she said it's not a problem.

Also, I schedule our 20 week ultrasound for Jan 19! Most people call this the big ultrasound because it's when gender is usually able to be determined, however we're not finding out, but I'm still just as excited to see our baby!

How far along? 16 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: I gained about 2 more pounds in the past week. Not bad, I'm up about 8 or 9 lbs total.

How Big is Baby?: An avocado! I want guacamole!

Maternity clothes? My jeans are DEFINITELY getting tighter, and some days I definitely have a baby bump.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Much better. However, I felt HORRIBLE yesterday and ended up taking a 2 hour nap? Apparently my body needed sleep and if we didn't have to get up and go out I would have probably slept through the night, so not really a nap.

Best moment this week: Hearing Cookie's hearbeat! So reassuring after last weekend. And we got our Beco last week! First babycarrier! (it was 63% off on mamabargains and I couldn't resist, those things are expensive full price) Now I just need a moby and a ring sling...

Movement: Still waiting...

Food cravings: Not many, in fact my food aversion is back and very strong. Chicken is a culprit right now, the thought of it makes me want to gag. Unfortunately everything I'm CRAVING contains gluten so it's a lost cause.

Gender: 24 more weeks! I picture it as a she in utero, but for some reason when I think of having a baby, I picture a boy.

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Darrin day! Christmas, and relaxing with the hubs and cats on his vacation.

Weekly Wisdom: Yes the belly is GROWING and when you try on pants and they're too tight, it's NORMAL.

Milestones: Watch what you say...tiny bones forming in baby's ears mean she can now pick up your voice. A few more minuscule changes: Eyebrows, lashes, and hair are starting to fill in, and taste buds are forming.\

I'm just looking forward to getting these drives to and from NJ done and over with, this weather is so iffy it has me a little stressed/nervous.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

15 Weeks!

Just want to say Hi to Aunt Ev now that I know you're reading!

How far along? 15 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Same.

How Big is Baby?: A navel orange!

Maternity clothes? Same as before, although I noticed my jeans are definitely getting tighter.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Horrible. I've had this nasty cold and when I get sick I can't sleep. Although I seem to be feeling better as of last night and sleeping better.

Best moment this week: Going to Lafayette. It was nice being able to do our family traditions especially being pregnant this year. Also Dana's engagement party.

Movement: Still semi-patiently waiting. I know it could take up to 20 weeks but I'm trying to pay attention for fear I'll miss it.

Food cravings: They're kind of dieing off. I had craving for something sweet today, went to walmart bought a box of gluten free brownie mix and it's still sitting on the kitchen floor, unmade.

Gender: 25 more weeks!

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Christmas and Darrin possibly coming tomorrow night.

Weekly Wisdom: Every bump and bang will petrify you, however, when you call the doctor's office you will fear sounding like a paranoid lunatic and everything will be fine.

Milestones: Continuing the march towards normal proportions, baby's legs now outmeasure the arms. And, finally, all four limbs have functional joints. Your fetus is squirming and wiggling like crazy down in the womb, though you probably still can't feel the movements.

This weekend was a scary one with the ice storm in NJ and me and mom getting into a minor accident. I've been a little worried but I called the doctor and they said as long as there was no bleeding I'm probably fine. I have my 16 week appointment on Monday so I'll get to hear Cookie's heartbeat then and be reassured. And then on Tuesday night J and I will be heading back to NJ AGAIN! This time for a few more days and we'll be able to celebrate Christmas. While I love seeing friends and family the fear of weather and the stress of traveling has me a little wary. I have a feeling the next week will fly by!

Monday, December 7, 2009

14 Weeks!

Time sure is flying!
How far along? 14 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Same.

How Big is Baby?: The size of a lemon. Oh my!

Maternity clothes? Just my regular jeans and maternity dressier pants (but they are super comfy)

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: I've hit the headache and scary dream week.

Best moment this week: Just being pregnant

Movement: None, although I'm waiting! Shoud be soon.

Food cravings: Not too much, mostly pasta

Gender: 26 more weeks!

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Going back to NJ this weekend and Dana's engagement party!

Weekly Wisdom: Sleep whenever you can.

Milestones: By weeks 14-17, your baby's bone marrow is producing blood cells; his liver is secreting bile; his pancreas is producing insulin; and he will be covered in a layer of downy hair called lanugo. Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, and (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over the body for warmth.

Monday, November 30, 2009

13 weeks!

Just got back from the doctor for my 12 week appointment (a week late) and had the dreaded blood tests. I was given a backpack full of stuff (magazines to coupons to samples) and paperwork to fill out and bring back before our 36 week appointment for the hospital when we deliver. I was also sent home with a giant container to do my first 24 hour urine collection. Yay!!! It has to be kept in the fridge. They do one now so that they have a baseline for later down the road if I have hypertension or warning signs of preeclampsia.

Then we finally got to the fun...FINDING COOKIE'S HEARTBEAT!
It took a while (because the baby is still so small and they move around so much) but she finally found it! It was high 150's low 160's, right where it should be. Then I scheduled my 16 week appointment and was on my way home.

Now the usual!

How far along? 13 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Same. I weighed myself this morning and despite all the pumpkin cheesecake over Thanksgiving I didn't gain any weight. I guess cookie was hungry over the holiday. However, I had a possessed scale at the doctor's appointment, it says I am 10 lbs heavier than my scale at home????!!!!! no way, hopefully it was because I drank like a gallon of water so that I could give them a urine sample, and I had jeans, sweatshirt, and sneakers on, and I just had lunch.

How Big is Baby?: The size of a peach. This baby is getting big!

Maternity clothes? Well, I didn't wait to buy more. I bought 3 pairs of pants, a pair of capri's, and a shirt on black friday. How could I pass all of that up for $23?

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: The fatigue is hitting me.

Best moment this week: Hearing the baby's heartbeat today. High 150's Low 160's

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Not much. Just major food aversion. Pizza! However I've found a gluten free way to satisfy my craving that J likes too.

Gender: 27 more weeks. I can't believe how soon that feels.

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Search for the Christ Child this weekend. However that is not pregnancy relates, so I guess just being able to absorb the fact that this pregnancy is starting to feel more real.

Weekly Wisdom: Don't buy food that sounds good expecting to be able to eat it the next day.

Milestones: Your baby is 2 1/2 to 3 inches long, the size of a medium goldfish. She weighs about one ounce. Your baby is shorter than a finger, but her face is already showing individual features and characteristics! Her ears are now developed enough that she may be able to hear when you sing, hum, or talk. And her vocal cords will form this week—soon she'll be able to sing back. Your baby spends her time in your womb flexing her new and developing muscles and joints. Bouts of prenatal hiccups are strengthening your baby's diaphragm, which is preparing her respiratory system for breathing. Less glamorous but highly necessary organ systems for making hormones, absorbing nutrients, and filtering waste are also in place this week. The pancreas, gall bladder, and thyroid have developed, the kidneys can make urine, and her bone marrow is making white blood cells to help fight infection after she's born.

Monday, November 23, 2009

12 weeks!

We're getting dangerously close to the end of the 1st trimester! I'm still feeling great, people at church have even joked with me "Are you sure you're pregnant? I felt horrible".

Onto the survey!

How far along? 12 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Same.

How Big is Baby?: The size of a plum

Maternity clothes? I'm in love with my one pair of dress pants. I'm going to wait before committing to buying more.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Eh, somenights great and somenights horrible. However the fatigue has gotten horrible this week. I feel like i start the day on 1/4 tank and am running on fumes after 7 pm.

Best moment this week: Telling everyone on Thanksgiving!

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Not much. Just major food aversion.

Gender: 28 more weeks. This pregnancy is going way too fast.

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Finally telling everyone and the relief.

Weekly Wisdom: Still more sleep.

Milestones: Your baby's crown-to-rump height is 2 1/2 inches, or about as tall as a squash ball. She may weigh as much as half an ounce. This begins the age when the fetus starts to look really cute in those womb pictures. If you had a womb camera, you'd be able to see your baby's proportions changing, with the growth of the head slowing down to let the rest of the body catch up. Arms, legs, and fingers are also growing out and tapering to look more like a newborn's, and your baby's posture becomes less curled and more upright. Isn't it amazing that every person in the world was once the size of your thumb?

Monday, November 16, 2009

11 weeks

How far along? 11 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Same.

How Big is Baby?: The size of a lime

Maternity clothes? I got a pair of pants. They are amazing.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Some awesome nights, some not so awesome nights.

Best moment this week: Working on how we're going to tell everyone on Thanksgiving.

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Not much. Just major food aversion.

Gender: 29 more weeks. Wow that sounds really close

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Sharing the news at Thanksgiving.

Weekly Wisdom: Sleep. Sleep. And sleep some more.

Milestones: Your baby is about 1 1/2 to 2 1/2 inches long and weighs about a third of an ounce, the size of a peanut. This is a big week for your baby's growth—she'll double in height. At the end of the week, her head and body will be roughly equal in length. This week also starts an active phase for her - she can turn somersaults, roll over, flex her fingers, hiccup, and stretch. You won't be able to feel her movement for another month and a half. She's floating in lots of amniotic fluid. Her limbs are developing from webbed paddles into arms and legs that have well-defined fingers and toes. Fingernails, toenails, and hair follicles are also beginning to form. Your baby's testes or ovaries have developed, though the sex probably won't be visible on a sonogram for at least another month. Intestines have developed at the place where the umbilical cord meets your baby's body. The intestines are now able to make constricting movements, though there won't be anything to digest until later

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

10 Weeks

Well the doctor moved my due date yesterday to June 7th. So yesterday was technically 10 weeks.

How far along? 10 weeks and 1 day

Total weight gain/loss: I'm thinking about 4 lbs

How Big is Baby?: Your baby is now about an inch long and weighs five grams, or one-sixth of an ounce, roughly the size of a garden beetle

Maternity clothes? Soon, I think we're going to go sometime this week.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: I've hit the hunger week, I woke up last night to have a bowl of cereal.

Best moment this week: Seeing the baby!!! Heartbeat of 180bpm and a moving baby

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Ice cream.

Gender: 30 more weeks, but John says he is definitely feeling it's a girl and started referring to Cookie as she every now and then. However, we both thought the twins were both girls, and we were absolutely wrong.

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Sharing the news at Thanksgiving.

Weekly Wisdom: Hormones will rule your life. You will get angry and cry at the washing machine, the tv, the cats and then you will be so mushy that you have to go love on the cats all within 2 minutes.

Milestones: This end of the two-month mark is a landmark date for your baby. It's looking more human all the time. If you could look inside, you'd see a thumb tip-size translucent creature that's unmistakably human. Kidneys, lungs, genitals, and the gastrointestinal tract are all present, though far from fully formed. Your baby's bones begin to form in his limbs, a process called ossification. The floor plan for your baby's structure has been laid down, and the next thirty weeks will be about expanding and developing on this blueprint. If your baby is a boy, his testes are already producing testosterone. A Doppler handheld device can usually detect a fetal heartbeat by this point. Once the heartbeat is detectable, your chances of miscarrying in the first trimester are immediately lower: between five and ten percent.

I can't thank you enough for our miracle. Thank you for allowing me to love this baby more than I've ever loved in my life, and I haven't even met Cookie yet.

Monday, November 9, 2009

letter #1

Dear Cookie,
I have never been so scared, nervous, excited and happy in my life. Seeing you today was surreal. As your daddy I of course worry about all kinds of things you won't have to worry about for a long time, I get worried I'm not doing things right or smart enough to prepare for your arrival, but Mom and I have a strong faith in God that He will help us and guide us in our journey together. There sure are so many things to do here, I'm sure your going to have fun and I can imagine you being here with us enjoying all our blessings. We will see you soon.


Introducing Baby Cookie!

Dear Cookie,

Today Daddy and I got to see you for the first time and I can't believe how much I could love you already. It's shocking to see that you really are in there. I'm treasuring the pictures that we were able to take with us.

I am savoring every moment that you are with me, growing in me, and I love you more as each moment passes. The doctors say we will get to meet you June 7th and until that day I will hold precious every moment. I dream about who you will look like and what you will sound like, what color hair you will have, and what color eyes, what will be your first word, what your first smile will look like and what your first laugh will sound like.

You have a special piece of my heart that will belong to you and only you. I've loved you before I saw you today and there will be no end to it.

There are so many people who can't wait to meet you, so please keep growing and I will keep loving you.

Your Mommy

Thursday, November 5, 2009

9 Weeks!

Well unfortunately due to my trip to St. Lucia I had to miss out on week 8, but today we will start again with Week 9!

How far along? 9 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Not really sure because I got glutened.

How Big is Baby?: A green olive, wow.

Maternity clothes? Not yet.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Great! just some crazy pregnancy dreams.

Best moment this week: starting to feel like there really is a baby in there and knowing Monday is the first ultrasound.

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Still salty food.

Gender: 31 weeks till we find out!

Labor Signs: No way.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Our first ultrasound on Monday!

Weekly Wisdom: Heat is evil to a pregnant woman!

Milestones: Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like...well...a baby

Thursday, October 22, 2009

7 weeks!

Today is 7 weeks!

I've been MIA on this blog. A long trip to NJ ended up with a long drive back to Ohio and exhaustion and fear of getting sick. I had a great time with Sharon and the boys and can't wait for Thanksgiving to be able to spill the beans!

How far along? 7 weeks today

Total weight gain/loss: None since last week.

How Big is Baby?: A blueberry!

Maternity clothes? Not yet.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep: Great! just some crazy pregnancy dreams.

Best moment this week: spending time with the boys and getting more and more excited about or Little Cookie!

Movement: None.

Food cravings: Still salty food.

Gender: J and I both think girl. 33 weeks to go!

Labor Signs: I only have like 7 more months to go for that!

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: St. Lucia! And then coming home and our Ultrasound on Nov 9

Weekly Wisdom: Visiting family is very hard when you're trying not to tell them you're pregnant

Milestones: Baby's brain -- both hemispheres! -- is growing fast, generating about one hundred new cells every minute. Arms and legs are emerging as joints start to form, and a permanent set of kidneys (baby's third!) is now in place.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Today is 6 weeks!

How far along? 6 weeks today

Total weight gain/loss: I've gained about 3 lbs, I'm so bloated however it's starting to lessen.

How Big is Baby?: A sweet pea

Maternity clothes? Nope, despite the 3lb gain all of my pants fit exactly the same, hence why I don't think it's anything other than water weight

Stretch marks? Definitely no.

Sleep: my chest hurts so bad that I wake up if I roll over funny. And I'm having the craziest dreams now. They're so vivid!

Best moment this week: hitting the 6 week mark. I feel like I'm actually pregnant and the fact that the baby is now the size of a pea! Wow it's actually there.

Movement: I certainly would hope not.

Food cravings: salty food, like chips and fries. Trying to limit it to small amounts. I think I had 5 fresh potato chips yesterday to satisfy it.

Gender: J and I both think girl. Guess we'll find out in 34 weeks.

Labor Signs: Thankfully no. Very little cramping now. It comes and goes but definitely nothing else.

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I am looking forward to: Seeing our cookie on November 9th!

Weekly Wisdom: Not getting sleep is a very different situation now that I'm pregnant. Sleep as much as possible.

Milestones: Baby should have a heartbeat by now!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


Wow, it's been a few days since I've been able to blog.

Friday I met Sharon at the Lodi outlets, we let the boys stretch their legs and then off we went. We stop at Clearfield, PA only to find out that the BK playground is for kids 4-10 so we had issues. The boys did great on the carride. However by the time we got to my parents house they were not ready to sleep. So needless to say I got about 3 hours of sleep Friday night.

Saturday turned into an interesting day. I spent time with my mom, saw J's mom, saw all the Hanlons and Darrin. Then Sunday we left at 5am for the airport. After a layover in Philly I got into Cleveland around 11 and was home around 12:15. What a long, exhausting weekend but I'm pretty sure noone has a clue about our Cookie! However, it didn't end there. After the airport I quickly changed and headed down to the Ramseyer's where we worked until about 6pm. I was on register most of the time and the credit card machine was down so I had to run to the other side of the barn every time someone paid with a credit card. And I was in the credit card line. We stopped at The Barn for dinner and headed home. I fell asleep at about 9pm, I couldn't stay awake any longer.

Yesterday I headed back down the Ramseyer's where I worked from 10-3:30. I headed home and J and I went looking for flooring and insulation stuff. I fell asleep around 9pm AGAIN.

Today I woke up around 9 (great night of sleep) and headed to the quilt shop to do some of my quilt blocks. I've had a strange day as I noticed I've been lightly bleeding since about 4am. I called the doctor and they said not to worry about it unless it became heavier.

I HATE MY CROCKPOT. It has been randomly turning off and I come home to uncooked food. I want a new one.

Give me patience and strength to survive the return trip with Sharon and the boys.


Thursday, October 8, 2009

Tomorrow is a big day...

I will be driving with Sharon to help take care of Alan and Ryan all the way to NJ. I am barely feeling pregnant anymore. With no gluten in my system I'm feeling amazing.

I forgot to blog last night, I was exhausted. I had almost no sleep the night before and then I baked for church all day and my gluten free chocolate cake came out horrible!

Then we headed to church after John got out of work and had dinner and bible study. It's Family Nights every wednesday now. Today I was supposed to paint but J didn't set everything up and it's heavy and I'm still a little tired so we will paint together when he gets home tonight.

I have bee trying to clean all day to get ready for Alan and Ryan tomorrow. I also have a few hours in the morning tomorow for finishing touches. I don't think I'm going to be able to blog everyday until we tell the family. There just isn't much to talk about.

Give my body the strength it needs to grow this baby. Please allow J and I the endurance to complete all our projects. Thank you for everything e have and everything you continue to give to us.


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Making Plans...

So I'll probably be able to see Greg one of these weekends I visit NJ. However, I'm hopefully going to have the news wait until Thanksgiving when John is with me.

I baked some cookies, mowed the lawn, did dishes and laundry and did a quick errand to walmart. I'm feeling MUCH better today, definitely got glutened.

Tomorrow I may paint some of the living room and bake for Wednesday night. I was planning on going quilting at the church but I don't know if I will be able to, if I'm able to get enough baked early I will.

I feel great today had excellent energy and my appetite has decreased a lot. Scared I'm not pregnant and this isn't real. I'm looking forward to my trip to NJ this weekend to take my mind off of everything.

Countdown to November 9th: 34 days till the Ultrasound

I'm still doing well, no spotting just cramping.

Please keep me sane and accept that this baby is real. Please allow the time to pass quickly till we are reassured that Cookie is doing well.


Monday, October 5, 2009

Life goes on...

Today I have realized that I have been glutened. Because I woke up with energy today that I haven't had in days. I haven't been near as hungry and I gained 6 lbs?? whoa!!! So hopefully eating 100% gluten-free and drinking a ton of water will shed that weight and I will be back to myself soon.

Today I made some pillowcases ,painted the living room trim, and almost outed us. My mother called and we were talking about home renovations and she mentioned buying stuff for our hardwood in the living room to make it look like new. I mentioned we're going to carpet it and she had asked when and I responded "When we gut the nursery". OH NO. I quickly added "Ugh I keep calling it that cause she had it set up with her grandson's crib." I hope she bought it.

Still working on my special quilt. I need to make some pillowcases for John's mom and finish more quilts. I have to make one for my cousin's birthday. I'm trying to get all the tops finished so that when we clean out the nursery I won't have bits and pieces to get lost.

Tomorrow hopefully the living room will be painted. Josh is only working till 11 and he said he would help me afterwords.

The three of us met up at Allardale Park after John got out of work and we did the 1.25 mile loop. It's so beautiful up there with the tree's changing color and Josh is even going to go back tomorrow. It's the fist time I've really exercised a little since last week and I realize pregnancy gets you out of breath. I think the bloating and the glutening had to do a lot with it too. I'm looking forward to going back another day.

John is finishing up living room tasks right now so it will be ready for paint, and I'm relaxing at the end of a fun day. All of my nausea and heartburn have left (I think this was a side effect of the gluten, it's amazing how similar they are) and outside of the sore chest I'm feeling great!

Please give me the patience to make it till November 9th and THANKSGIVING. Please give me the gracefullness to make it through these weekends without hinting that I'm pregnant.


Sunday, October 4, 2009

Start of the 2nd week.

So today I am 4 weeks, 3 days pregnant. Wow. We had a wonderful time a church today and I finally got to meet Jim and Sharon. Jim is a contractor and has agreed to help J out with the bathroom while I'm in St. Lucia. I'm excited to come home to a finished bathroom.

We've decided to carpet the living room, hallway and 2 bedrooms so that we have play room and warm cozy floors. But we need a nice clean vaccuum. I believe we will be buying a Kirby. That's still up in the air.

I've been slacking today and having a poor energy day. I think all the eating out got me glutened and hopefully a few days of 100% home cooking will help with these symptoms. We had rotisserie chicken and cheesy rice with brocolli followed by some chocolate ice cream for dessert. It was yummy.

Thank you for the friends and the fellowship we have at church. Thank you for this baby whom we are already head of heels in love with.


Saturday, October 3, 2009

Fun, LONG Day

We left for Debbie's at about 10am and just returned home about 8 PM!

I'm definitely pregnant haha. I'm exhausted. However I was so tired when we stopped at Lodi Outlets, I wanted preggy pops for the trip to NJ. Just to be prepared if morning sickness starts. And it was the farthest point away from where we were and I made everyone walk, and I must say it gave me a good energy boost.

I craved Mexican so we went to Fiesta Jalapenos and it was so yummy. However, I'm not sure Little Cookie (this is what we decided to call the baby for now, it is baking after all) really loved it, cause I got wicked heartburn and indigestion afterwords.

I'm slowly adjusting to smaller meals all day. I did well until dinner today, however I didn't stuff myself like prior days. It's going to take some getting used to.

We told Debbie today. She was shocked and excited. It feels good to tell people. I am having a hard time talking to anyone in our family for fear I'll spill the beans. I was on the phone with J's mom about making her pillowcases and I had no idea what to say to her. The biggest thing in our life is happening right now and I can't say anything.

Thanksgiving can't come fast enough...

Let these trips go well and let Nov 9th and Thanksgiving come fast. Please give us the strength and determination to keep our secret and let everyone be joyous for us.


Friday, October 2, 2009


The end of the first week I've been pregnant.

Tomorrow we're going down to Steve and Debbie's for a short time. And then John wants to go to the Amish furniture stores. TO LOOK FOR CRIBS! And it was all his idea. He wants to get an estimate of how much one will be so we can save up for it. He also wants to look for headboards for the two beds.

I think I'm going to look for a price on a crib and matching dresser. I want to get the crib that converts into a full size headboard and footboard.

We definitely won't buy a crib until after 23 weeks, so 19 more to go! But this way we can be prepared for when we want to buy it.

I've picked out the nursery paint colors now we just need to replace the drywall and trim.

It's starting to really sink in that I'm actually pregnant. I'm still peeing a lot and I'm super hungry. And I have to eat right before bed or I have a stomachache when I wake up. Just trying to get my protein and juice. I occasionally drink milk too. I never would have imagined I would be THIS hungry.

I started making another quilt. That one has a really special plan. The block of the week quilt I'm working on won't be finished in time. I'm super excited to get it started! I already started cutting the pieces. I think I'm going to prewash the red pieces tomorrow.

Give me the discipline and concentration needed for this quilt. Give us the determination and funds to fix this house up and make it baby ready. Please allow us a fun day tomorrow and fun fellowship.


Thursday, October 1, 2009

Beautiful Thursday...

It's finally not raining!!! It got down to 37 last night. John and I woke up to fogged up windows in our room.

Now let's talk about waking up. I think I had my first night of "pregnancy sleep". I woke up at 2 with cramps and then started worrying about bleeding so I went to the bathroom. There was never blood but I was still having serious cramps so I was awake until about 4. Then I fell asleep and woke up with John and 6. The cramping didn't end until probably 8am so my guess is, it was something I ate.

I spent 4 hours at the quilt place yesterday. But I got two blocks of my block of the weeks done. They're on week 4 and I'm on week 3, so I'm about 2 weeks behind, hopefully I can catch up next week. I have a special plan with this quilt.

We've decided not to the move the staircase. Between the time, permits, and money it's just not our priority. Our priority is finishing the kitchen, gutting the nursery, putting in a tub, and carpeting the hallway, nursery and our bedroom. And painting the living room which is so close to being ready.

I've already got my theme for the nursery ready, I just knew what I wanted. It's so hard not to tell our family however my symptoms seem to be lessening. I've been using the bathroom less and less, however my stomach is becoming more and more sensitive.

Not much else to write about. Things are still going. Just counting down the days till Nov 9th. October will be the first full month I'm pregnant.

This entry is very jumbled, probably due to exhaustion.

Please give my body the ability to sleep tonight. Please give me the strength to carry this baby for 9 months and to accomplish all the goals we set for ourselves.


Wednesday, September 30, 2009


I had some mild nausea yesterday but all seems well. I picked up some juice boxes and cereal to help me with the constant eating all day. Seems I get nauseous when I get hungry.

However, I slept GREAT last night. I slept all the way till 8:30 this morning (woke up for a short time when J left and then Cat 1 decided I should be up too). So I'm having a great day energy wise.

I got dinner in the crock pot and I'm getting ready to go to the quilt store. The lady there had advised me how to fold the pillowcases for a charity to sew and between the pregnancy hormones and the exciting past few days I can't remember what she said! (Sorry for the run on sentence).

The hubs is starting to really get the fact that I'm pregnant. It's still really sinking in to the both of us. We also told Steve. But that's about it.

The biggest issue I'm having right now is my skin is breaking out. Also I've got some strange cramping, more like pressure across my lower abdomen. It's weird. I know, just wait till what comes later...

I don't think either of us will really be able to grasp that this is real until I start showing or the first ultrasound, whichever comes first.

Thank you for all of your blessings. I look forward to being able to raise our child in your name. Give me the strength to rely on my husband and to grow this baby healthy. Give us your grace to accept the things that will happen.


Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Today's Test

After the mishap with the Clearblue Digital, I decided to try First Response Digital. Unfortunately, it doesn't say Pregnant, just Yes+ or No-. So here is today's test. Highly definitive. Even J can't argue it.

Officially Late...

Today is the day I am supposed to start my period and no sign of it. It's starting to really set in.

J is having a hard time believing it so I got him a John Deere onesie and a card to say thank you for being a great husband. And we decided we would confirm everything with a digital test today. Well, no luck there. The hourglass came up then it went blank. So we have no idea what the result was. The company will send new ones out in the mail so I think I will buy a new pack of a DIFFERENT brand today.

It's just frustrating. I was really looking forward to seeing the word "Pregnant" on the screen.

Other than that I'm just peeing every 2 hours like clockwork. I've also realized I have to change my eating habits. I'm so used to eating meals and no snacking. But I've realized lately that I'm stuffing myself at meals because I'm so hungry, so I've decided to eat every few hours instead and have small meals. I hope it helps with the hunger and energy.

I've also developed a runny nose and I'm sneezing often. They say that it's common and I'm not too worried. I'm still sleeping great, except I usually wake up at 6 because I have to go to the bathroom so bad. And for the past few days that's been okay because I've been taking pregnancy tests, but that's gonna get tiring. Hopefully I can learn to go back to sleep after I use the bathroom.

J is handling things well, just rushing to get things in the house finished. I think we're going to have to gut the nursery. There is so much water damage in the drywall and I'm terrified of the mold behind it all.

First official ultrasound is scheduled for November 9th at 3:30. It's crazy because that is J and I's 5 year anniversary of the day he asked me to be his girlfriend. Our ultrasound is actually a little late because I won't be here at the end of October (I'll be in St. Lucia with my mom) so it will actually be more around 10 weeks instead of 8. And then we plan on telling the family at Thanksgiving.

It feels like so long away, however I'm so busy in October that I think that month will fly by and then we just have to get through the few weeks in November. I have a lot to get done by then.

Give us the strength and determination to get all things done that we need to. Give our families the joy that this pregnancy should bring. Thank you for the things we have and everything we can give back to you.


Monday, September 28, 2009

Today's Test

Barely there. But definitely there. How I feel about being pregnant.


So I took another test this morning. Definitely positive. I can't believe this, I really can't. I don't have any real symptoms, except yesterday I had to pee about every 1.5-2 hours, seriously. Somehow I guess I cut enough fluids because I slept 7 hours, I was so tired by bedtime. And I can feel this every 2 hour bathroom cycle returning. It's been an hour and I'm starting to have to go again.

I ended up telling J last night because he asked and he verified that the test this morning was indeed positive. We're both excited and REALLY nervous. We have so much work to do to get the house ready.

We're planning on telling our families at Thanksgiving. Darrin was our designated to tell person so we called him up just as he got to work this morning to tell him. It again was very surreal.

Rocket and I were on the bed this morning and J said by to the three of us. I can't believe how hard this is hitting me. I guess when I don't get my period tomorrow it will really hit.

Give us the strengh in our marriage to support each other at this time. Let your will happen and give us the strength to be the parents this baby deserves.


Sunday, September 27, 2009

My 25th Birthday

So today is Sunday and it’s also my 25th birthday. I decided to take a pregnancy test this morning expecting it to be negative. And after brushing my teeth I notice there is a second line. It’s difficult to see and barely there, but I know in my heart that I am pregnant. For some reason God told me to test on my birthday (which is crazy early) but there is a line. I got all shaky and nauseous and excited. I haven’t told J. He says he doesn’t want to know right away, besides I want to wait till my period is definitely late. I think he’d be devastated to find out we’re pregnant and then to have it be a chemical pregnancy.

This is all very surreal and I don’t FEEL pregnant. However, if it is true I have a very special way I plan on telling him which probably won’t be until Wednesday or Thursday so you’ll have to wait for the cute story. For some reason the other night I planned out how we’ll tell everyone when the time comes. I guess God just told me it was our turn.

Today has moved at an odd pace. It’s gone quickly however it’s crawling at the same time. I can’t wait to test again tomorrow morning however I’m petrified there will be nothing on the test.

Let your will happen. Give me the strength and the confidence to trust in you and your plan for our lives.